I started treatment in toxicology. In no time he saw something wrong with me, were at most drug product .. But after weeks appeared to be without consuming ..
had physical and psychological effects, problems in attitude and thoughts .. It was a great change, to start living in a natural way, with different times and feelings that I had forgotten. Able to look back and say: How do I make / support / think so? I opened my eyes.
While initially my idea to stop doing drugs, was mostly generated by the pain I caused my family. I was fine. I knew that if he could stop doing drugs without problems, desire was to have but a matter of Desicion ... and so, though .. (It is difficult to explain) I saw all the precautions that were taken as innesesarias was an outpatient, had appointments with the psychologist, a group of psychiatrists and toxicology every week.
From living in the center back to my neighborhood. Was always accompanied and I had cut off communication with all those who were not my family, I mean, my tour mates and friends in the neighborhood. Or would not buy one. I was medicated with psychotropic drugs to put me stable. One morning and one at night.
12am to sleeping times and the days seemed very long, I was always upset, worried, ate a lot, I always felt attacked ... but it's frame.
The first day I had wanted to vacuuming cafiaspirins .. not because of the effect, but the fact of "sniffing" and I realized I was in trouble .. Gone are the days and quit smoking. At home no smoke or drink or anything. So it was pretty easy. I started drawing
(my passion) and always listened to music ... each trice again that thought the songs were for me ... They talked about me, my mistakes, I had to do ...
At night I always felt that someone was there .. behind the window or (I sleep in a sailor top) lying on the bottom bunk at the door .. While it could be my old with the best intentions in the world .. I was terrified. Until one night I felt like I blew the legs (as I did when I got high and wanted to sleep) but I had the courage to see ... banque me with hatred and accused him raise a family that my brother was safe ... My brother refused, but I was sure it had been! but who? .. To top it had ugly dreams ... in which yelling and scared me. I was always the question of whether serious screaming.
I increased the medication in the evening .. I sleep better, I woke up at midnight, not chasing me and fall asleep faster. To an Internet
which meant "psychotropic" I learned that one of the symptoms were the feeling persecuted, feeling that people know about them and feel like "snakes that climb up the legs."
-Chau! - I said - I have the brain made shit!
However in the afternoon I felt a little scary but controlled, sometimes seen in the tunnel (near the close and everything else far away) or any bright, watching me by others, who called me when not, the songs and when I talked to someone was waiting to say something special because we were hearing was yq me realize certain things .... not ... looked around there was something wrong ... but when I realized that was chasing me think of something else ... it was a lie and more or less or controlled.
I increased the medication over another in the afternoon.
now rarely pursue me, I am stable, I feel weird and I like to live like this! I'm not doped or anything, I can put my attention on what I want (I still read it costs a bit) without being distracted, I remember things that had apparently forgotten when I did drugs, my conversation and my speaking has improved, no I'm both branches, I learned to listen, I have more patience (that if it cost me ... haha) I can listen to music without me problem with the letter! I listen and enjoy ... When I see pictures now I think are all double, or remind me such a person. I have a life plan and wants to live more peaceful
, VIVO ... Ohau!
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