Before my ex with whom I joined, had had enough chabón boyfriend a womanizer and had questions I did a test for HIV, I did not, all good things in order ..
When I joined, I was careful, until after so swell (stupid me) and swearing by the child that had NOTHING, from time to time up before leaving to take care of me always tugging "you you have HIV, I can tell by your face / legs / etc "I did not give ball .... After a while I decided to stop caring for him. I still remember when I first told he had HIV, had been in the bathtub, he had was drying out and I was lying .. We had re stoned as usual and we had fallen, the idea was to eat and follow the tour.
He said he had HIV, which had been treated but had "cured "I was a super exceptional case ... I was scared. I kept thinking," I caught, I have HIV, I can infect, I have to care, I have HIV ". He told me he was friends with HIV he fed them when they were with serum, which was infected with a large mine asshole, etc, I was sitting in the bathtub with water.
thought, "Well, that's it. I have HIV, I HAVE HIV ..." I was angry with him, what could I say? I loved him ... I imagine the face that must have been me, haha, until he said: "Nah," Are you the believe it?? Mentiraaa, I have HIV! Hahahaha! " He laughed, he used to do such things, made me believe something and then told me that was a lie. I smiled, I was still in shock .. haha .. but it happened, I swore it was a joke and I believed him.
When he was angry that he grabbed the handle or jealousy in those moments that would turn the house to break all the screams, and denigrating puteándome always shouted: "Do not you see that I have HIV?? Yeah, I have AIDS! " He always said that drug to him was "self destruct" ... and that it was acceptable for this type of behavior ....
Anyway, after I denied it or not talked about the issue .... He apologized and everything was fine .. Speaking with the former every two of three HIV test was done telling me that I had, I even showed a couple of tests had been negative ....
When I went to the complaint by violence, with my old I went to record all the bruises and wounds in the hospital, in case we quilombo ... When I attended asked about the HIV test because he had doubts ... "Whenever I had asked for the test to be coupled with my ex in the guards told me I had to take turns with the clinician and only then ask ... Conclusion: I did-
I just attended a preventive medical girls, I gave the order and they told me everything after me some questions ...
1, Elisa: Positive
I went with my mom made me go ... I had the idea that if I had ... I attended a doctor and head of industry, of which I spoke, I asked, said they were treated etc, etc. So I attacked the anxiety. "And then?"
was rare, although supposedly he was "ready" when I said yes, that just had to confirm it, and then oootro had to do analysis; The corners of his mouth I went down, watery eyes, trembling, afraid to pass out ... I imagine my poor old woman was beside me.
When I stopped my legs were shaking. Ohau, that shock.
At home he was afraid of "scary", was it clear how it is spread, but I did something that a person who knew he had HIV (I had told my brothers) have rejected ... I do not know ...
2 ° Elisa: Positive
I went with my mom made me go ... was with the idea that going to be positive, my mom encouraged me that there was not, but I had the idea that I had HIV ... Again
same, sad? I do not know, but like the first time ... Maybe not as strong, but as it was. I was told that the WB took a month and then going to do the analysis of viral loads and defenses ...
WESTERN BLOT: 30/09/2010 POSITIVE
again with my old, poor saw his eyes watery, but I banque better. At first I was desperate because I analyze and see if my defenses were down to start treatment NOW ... but I realized that if I spent the whole time I was with my ex, who were months without attention, as they had been living with the virus (and still do) and like I had to relax, take care of others, worry but me no problem ... I realized that I had more made. The doctor reassured me and my mom telling me that I was more likely to die from a group that HIV, which is a chronic disease but that could get along with commitment and responsibility.
Talking with the doctor of preventive medicine, I decided it would be better than follow this topic in the same hospital in which I am following the treatment of poison, more than anything to not go from one hospital to another. He said he had worked there and the doctors are excellent in that he is, but it had more coverage in terms
machinery and other things.
My toxicologist gave me the first order, I did it again the 2 Elisa and WB, and I saw one in infectious diseases. It is a love, I checked and told me that my defenses were good, I gave orders for CD4 and viral load me, I took a few questions and when we finished. He said: "It's good that you've done the analysis you have now and not expected to suffer from AIDS. (I remember the hug he gave me) you'll be alright" "yeahhhh, already" I replied.
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